Hello again, sorry for taking so long to write. I am in the middle of packing up and getting ready to move again, plus I have been deathly ill. I believe some kind of 24 hour bug has been going around. This one absolutely floored me for the better part of 36 hours. I am feeling better now so the packing resumes tonight.
I have been debating what I really want to do in life for a while now. I currently work as a Network Systems Engineer and if I were to be truly honest, it just doesn’t satisfy me like it once did. I mean, I went back to college in 1999 to get a degree in Networking Technology because I really like fooling around with computers and such, but after almost 15 years of it forcing me to put my music on the back burner, I want to get back into writing as much as possible and performing every now and then as well.
As always in life, big decisions require great thought. On the one hand, I make really good money in the IT field. It has allowed me to finish a BS degree, teach college for six years, earn a little respect, and provide for myself (sometimes). With music, it is either sink or swim. You either get in full force or else you are just playing.
I know in my heart of hearts that music has always been my first love. It probably always will be, but I am 40 years old and my priorities have changed so much since I was young and wanted secretly to be a star. Now days, I look at all of the experiences I have had, good and bad, and I think there are some really good songs waiting to be written. At the same time, I want to be in a position where I can help young musicians gain a better appreciation of music, anything from pop to classical.
If you have read many pages in this journal, then you know that I want to move back home and open a music store. I believe that I will be able to create better music when I am surrounded by like-minded people. I also think that I would be in a much better position to work with young people too. I have so many ideas floating through my head about all of this it is unreal.
So I decided that the first step would be to free myself from the lease I had on my apartment. Since I live alone, it really won’t affect anyone but me. I have found a few places I can stay while I make up my mind. While waiting, I plan to pay off as many bills as possible so that when I finally leave my “real” job, I can work doing something that pays less without it killing me. If I get to start the business, then I can pay myself less than I make now without hurting me or the company.
Anyway, if you run across this post and you have a thought, good or bad, please post it for me. I would also like for you to say a little prayer that will help me make the right decision. Keep reading as often as you can and thanks for stopping by in the first place. Remember to click on the home link at the top of the page to visit my main site and keep your pencils on that notepad writing good songs. Love to All.